What happened?

When I'm writing this sentence, I really dunno what happening now.

My mood just like, falling from the bluie sky, heavily.

Just like what I wrote in my msn PM.

It's totally my mood now, really.

road-idiot

It's not my fault for being such stupid in recognize road!

It's not I want to be directing in wrong way!

I hate to being blamed on this!

What else can I do rather than keeping myself away?

I think taxi driver will be my best friend~

:(((

Stop being so 机车!

Ok seriously I hate ppl being so 机车!
What for u being so calculative since we stay together?!
Is it so important that who go pay the electrical bill?
Is it so important that who clean the toilet but who didn't?
What for u always been so serious when talking?!
What for u keep thinking that u are what the f*** so liao bu qi?!
It's hard to be housemates for facing u everyday u know?!!!!!

Well I think my level of tolerance as I can tolerate YOU as housemate for this half year.

Well I'm proud of myself and pei-si u!

I don't f***ing care u read this or not because I know u won't since u not even online surfing net!

What a bored person you are..........

happy little girl gone

Where is the happy little girl gone?

The girl who always smile..

The girl who always bring laughter to everyone..

The girl who always cheer ppl up when they are upset..

Where is this girl gone?
Is there some devil bring her away?

I miss my smiley.
I miss my all-ppl-love sound of big laugh.

Where can I find it?

So wish to

Dear bbf,

After talked to you whole night, I told you I suddenly so wish to back JB right now. It's not because I so sam-pat wish to know which guy u talking about, it's all because I so blamed that I can't be your side when u facing problem. I know u need someone beside u, to give u advice to listen to u. When u told me your friends seems getting lesser and lesser, especially when problem exist, I feel so guilty. And there is one moment I'm so regret that I'm right now working in KL. I always wish everyone beside me can be happy always, 'Happy Always' not just some words but they are some wishes in my deep heart.

Dear bbf, please forgive that I'm not really by your side but I always willing to listen to you.

So do to every of my dear buddies and dear and darling:)

Working Life Opinion

Seriously I understand why a lot of ppl like to complain a lot about their working life after back home. Always heard that some guy like to complain to their gf how's their boss accused them when they are not the one who wrong. Some girl like to complain to their bf how's their colleagues talked bad behind her.

Guys and girls, u need to always listen to your gf and bf. Coz the working life is not really as easy as we thought. We always meet someone so irritatable around there. Someone so don't-know-what-called-reason around them. Someone like to talk bad about others when they don't even know what happening. Someone like to accused others when they are the one who's wrong.

After back to home, it's always so important that someone listen to u. Even though u not giving any opinion, but at least someone willing to listen to u to talk some complaints, grumble, or thing else. U not even have to understand what happening but u just need to scold or complaint together with them.

I need this kind of person. Who can listen to me after I back from office. Listen to my grumbling or all those f*** thingy when I'm scolding someone. U no need to give any opinion or understand what i'm talking about just need to scold with me. HAHA

But I don't got=(

Luckily, I still got a lovely colleague who always scold together with me. Agree with me when I'm telling her someone was so unreasonable blaming me about the fault they made. Angry with me when I'm being accused. Laugh with me when I heard or saw something funny. Talk crap all the way when we are bored.

I don't know how to feel about my working life. Sometimes I enjoy it when I learn something I don't know at all in before. Sometimes I hate it when my boss like to call "Crystal, come help me............". Sometimes I feel lucky that MOST of my colleagues are friendly, although some not really. Sometimes I feel helpless when I being accused but nobody can prove to me that I'm not the one who wrong.

Things change. People change. Heart changing too.

I just wish to enjoy my life now. Enjoy everything I have now. Enjoy the moment I'm being alone at home reading the fiction whole day. Enjoy the moment of outingz with my dear friends and buddies. Enjoy the moment when I sometimes get to meet Corrine in weekends. Enjoy the moment when I talk at least half or 1 hour phone with my parents.

But sometimes, in my deep heart..I just..so wish..that I can no need to be so tough, somebody's shoulder can borrow to me, somebody willing to give me a big hug.

I just wish these..sometimes.

first time I've been so brave.

I always thought I won't be able to be so brave.
I thought I will never tell you all about that, so clearly.
But finally, the first time, I told you all what I'm thinking and feeling.
Everything between us is so clear now.
We no need guess each other's mind, no more misunderstanding.
It make me feel so fresh and comfort.
Finally, we cleared out everything:)

Bee=bEe=beE

Bee=bEe=beE

How can I tell you..

How can I tell you what happened on me when the reason is related to you?
How can I tell you I feeling sad because of you?
How can I tell you I am so dissapointed for your empty promise?
How can I tell you all this when it's related about you??

It's not just that simple as what you think, do you know?

You said..
Hope I will put it down one day.

Well,
I will. When I feel numb towards what you done to me........................

Angry with you.

I won't trust you anymore.

I don't understand why I still believing on you after been cheated so many times.
You can say me stupid, idiot, or fool..
I just wish to believe you again as I always find u a reason..
No more for this time....
Feeling sam-tam....~

*~~~~~~*

This is the result when a girl is feeling angry:P
No doubt it's me.

confident is such important to me.

I hate others being unconfident to me.
It's make me hurt.

I hate others don't trust my ability.
I will lose more confidence to my own.

I hate others thought I'm useless.
I know sometime I am but I hate being not trusted.

I hate I can't do things well.
I don't want to be the weakest among others.

I hate rely on others.
I hate this feeling.
It will make me guilty.

I hate being weaky in front of others.
Maybe acting strong is some way to protect myself.

I hate everything that I hate.
Really~

I just feeling bad lately. Sorry for keep posting emo post over here:p

Do you know me? well?

Can't believe.

I can't believe it.

I thought asking others to break up will only happened in the drama.

Never thought..........it happened to me.

What am I doing?

I know maybe it's wrong for doing that but.......I just telling something I feeling right?

Am I too selfish?

Dream of you.

I've been dream of u continuously few days ah-po(my grandma).
So I went to visit u that day. I seems never really went there after funeral.

Miss you so much:)

Dream.

You accepted me.
A girl that put her love in her life on you.

I had paid so much my loving to you.

When I thought I finally get something striving so much........


I was just unable to feel the moment.
Coz I just die of sudden.

I thought happiness start to fall on me but I just die.

The fears hitting me unstoppable........




A dream that woke me up on 5.08am.
I cry in continue.

hot butt paste cold face.

Don't know why I should taken all this in. I don't even know what mistake I made. How should I solve it when I don't even know what the problem is?

Been ignored without reason is the stupidest thing I ever had.

Isn't put all those thingy in heart the problem can be solved?? Don't know what you thinking about.

Anyway, no point for me to feel sad for that. I don't like to being cold-treated when I'm not wrong. I'm living without any consience.@.@~

Thanks for being with me anyhow. Being grateful and those memory will be unforgettable for me.

Big thanks to YOU!

ready.

I'm ready for u.
Will you like to dance with me?:D

hopeless and helpless.

When u putting hope on something that u never get,
Is it too silly?

When u putting hope on something that u care,
Is it too stupid?

When u wishing someone never care u for help,
Is it too naive?

When u wishing something desired to help u cheers,
Is it too optimistic?

****Hopeless and Helpless****

Even me myself can't cheers myself up, what can you do?

P&B

I love it.
I truly love it.
When I mean truly, I'm truly.
:D

You can.

Dear friend,

Be confident to yourself ok.

you sure can find your girl in some day in future.

Don't be scared that you will bored your girlfriend.

Coz I believe that you sure will put your best effort to give her the most happiness.

I had confidence on you.

=)

From,
Dear friend

I'm done

Hard to believe.
We watched the same movie.
Although I only know that when the movie was end.
But never thought we will watch movie together
Kungfu Dunk
:D